Hello hello! Finals week. I just KILLED myself on my French exam. But that's boring.

I'm trying very hard to get back into LJ...and I have a Wikipedia band meme.

( Fabulous! )

That was exciting. Break in 5 days!

01. Choose 20 movies that you enjoy.
02. From each, choose a quote that you like.
03. Post and let people guess what movie the quote comes from.
04. As each film is guessed correctly, strike out that entry.
05. No cheating!

( There's no telling where we're gonna be in ten years )



I may be interested in starting a new blog about food. I have some ideas. If you're still into reading me, holla here.

Excitement and BURN BURN BURN - my reactions to the news.

Some are saying "why does he have to be gay NOW? why does it even MATTER?" http://divineangst.com/archives/2007/10/i_guess_im_not_an_originalist.html

I think she didn't need to say it in the text because it has much more of an impact AFTER the fact. The books are done, people love HP, people love Dumbledore (I know, the vague statements are killing me too), and now that he's gay it puts a spin on things and doesn't ALLOW people to have prejudices or perceptual sets when they're reading/talking about/thinking about/etc. the good headmaster.

Publicity stunt to help the gays? No, I think I actually believe that she had that plan from the beginning. I wouldn't say that for a lot of people, not a lot at all, but Rowling has proven time and time again that she's thought out and maintained for years intricate, elaborate plans that basically knock our knickers off every time. I think it's a brilliant maneuver.

She's also mentioned before that the stories are sort of the draperies for real-life messages. Duh. So if everyone loves Dumbledore, and Dumbledore is gay, then everyone loves gays. I wish.

Also, she could have mentioned it ANYTIME in the books. She could have just HINTED at it (maybe she did; I didn't pick up on it). But then everyone would have been all "well why does that even MATTER, pairing his greatness & goodness & wisdom, etc. with GAYNESS?" And I definitely see that side of the argument. Definitely. So she waited, and she dropped the new now. Brilliant!

Thoughts? Please tell me if this was totally incomprehensible btw.

It is truly wrong of me to find humor with other people's misfortune.

However, I really have to say that the nude photos of Vanessa Hudgens have officially made my life because they will DESTROYYYYYYYYYY HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL!!!!!

Omg, so I am leaving for college in 4 days! I haven't even started packing. Please, anyone on my FL who is in college or going soon, be so kind as to suggest a few essentials that I know I won't think of on my own! I would greatly appreciate it.

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My coming back post.

( quiz stoled from Amanda )

I wish I felt like posting more about my life. I just got back from the river. Pictures are on facebook.

It has been the roughest week of my life. Quite literally the roughest week. I'm not going to go into it too deeply because it's very exhausting for me but basically it's been constant fights / trouble / anxiety / house arrest / my parents thinking I had sex with Art / driver's license expired / debit card being denied. UGH.

It's over now because as of this morning my life is coming together. I got my debit card worked out, so I've got money. I've got my license renewed, so I can drive my sweet baby car. My parents believe me when I tell them where I'm going to go & who I'm going to be with & they want to meet Art.

Speaking of Art, I've definitely developed some attachment to him, which is really nice. I guess it's the sex hormones because we've gone pretty far - not all the way, though.

Prom was June 5th & it was totally awesome. I was out until 6 am...then graduation was June 9th. Graduation was amazing. It was a very exhilarating feeling & I didn't even trip down the stairs! Then I went to a party. Then we had the all-night grad party at Dave & Buster's, & we had the whole mall to ourselves which was really nice. I was out until 6.30 am again & then I had another party. My family came down & I barely spent any time with them, but they understood.

There are a bunch of pictures on Facebook for those of you who don't know me on there. Comment & I'll sent it to you.

I ran out of smokes yesterday & I haven't had one since 4 PM yesterday. Ughghghghhhg. Robbie is hitting me up with a pack today, we're going to Starfux & I'm so excited because he's also been under house arrest & I haven't seen him. His parents make him work with the Salvadorans every day - just walk up to them and ask if he can help, for no money or anything. Geeeeez.

Oh, my photography teacher's wedding was on the 29th of May - the same day that Art asked me out! It was an amazing service & I'm so happy for her! She also came to my graduation & gave me the sweetest card, Robbie too, & flowers! It made an already amazing day better.

*Sigh* I feel like taking a huge breather and throwing this past week away. I'm so glad it's over...I need summer to really start. Things are coming together for me, a lot of menial dates & everything for school/reservations for hotel rooms @ the Grand Canyon (the river begins on the 29th!!!!) have been handed to me & I can finally relax.

Hope you all have had great days.

Oh, I bought some cool shit too ~ look! (Can't tell you how debilitating it is not to be able to buy stuff OR drive).

Coach Bag:
<>Lomographic Cameras (lomography.com, AMAZING site!): </b>
Fisheye Camera:
Action Sampler Flash Camera (takes four different shots of the same thing!):

& ummm CANON POWERSHOT SD750 W/ BLACK TRIM:

Side note: I know, I adore my Fuji Finepix Z2. I really do. But I've had it for a few years & the color tone is becoming noticeably cooler. I would go with the new generation, two of my friends actually have the Z5, but I'm just not completely sold on it. When my friend Claire showed me her new Powershot (Canon, my second favorite brand) I tested it out for awhile & found it to suit me very well. I'm really excited to use it on the river!

What can I say, I needed some retail therapy!

So the boy adores me, but I am just lukewarm on him. & I feel so guilty. He really, really adores me (Marisa can vouch for me on this) but I feel like I'm screwing our relationship because I don't really have any urge to touch him or be with him or anything. It really disturbs me. I seriously need those hormones that girls get when they bang people to kick in (not that we're fucking. seriously). Any advice?

So I graduate the fucking day after TOMORROW. Excitement. We had rehearsal today after closing ceremonies...& then I basically have been really restless all day & pissed off. Since I've started smoking I've dropped about 5 pounds which has been really, really nice...at this point in my life I'm just not going to worry about my habit. It's helped me to deal with the relative stress of having a boyfriend that I have little to no affection for, depending on the day. But don't get me wrong, we are really amazing friends...I just think that we would be better as friends. Although I don't want to hurt him or make things awkward at work. So for now I'm just seeing how it goes.

Gah.

So things are pretty good right now...I did my senior project this morning and it was sooooo smooth. That was a relief. Um, I'm feeling more favorably towards Art. I didn't mention it but there was/is a huge deal with how I'm not really sexually attracted to him, but I think and HOPE that I'm getting over that, because it makes me feel so guilty for our relationship. He's so into me, it's almost painful. That wasn't innuendo-ish at all. But I mean, I'd rather he be very into me than be so-so about it and then we'd fizzle. So I'm just going to see how it goes.

Oh. ma. gosh. PROM is tomorrow! I'm going with my friend Jordan. Tomorrow Shannon & I are doing the whole everything at the mall, I still have to get shoes & a strapless bra hahah. Maybe I'll pick up some fancy stuff for Art...HA Marisa I know you're cringing.

I had the headmaster's dinner tonight with the whole class and it was soooo good to see everyone. Then a bunch of us went to Starfux afterwards for like, 2 hours, and I saw the guy that I think is very cute (this is scandalous, I'm not allowed to hit on anyone!). & this is so awful but Lauren bought me a pack of cigs (my first pack! excitement) and she and Tucker & I smoked for awhile...I like them because they make me so relaxed. Although I did get jittery for some reason. I think it's cause I walked around too soon, usually Art & I just sort of mellow out for a while after we smoke. I had...2? And a drag of a Red, which probably wasn't a smooth move, and Tucker only smokes cigars so I had a whiff of that. Mmmm. They're tasty. Not gonna lie, I'm going to be awfully stressed out about prom and everything tomorrow so it'll be good to have my pack in my secret (SECRET) compartment in the car. I have a fucking secret compartment. Like...I know I'm not doing a smart thing right now but I have so many other things to worry about and it's not like I'm a huge partyer anyway. I blame the movie theatre completely. I'm just going to roll with it for now. Shiiiit. Alie is like, "have fun with your cancer sticks." Love it. Plus, this is bad, but smoking combined with being with a boy (when I was with Chris I ate virtually nothing because I was stressing out about him for the entire time) gives me no fucking appetite at all. I haven't eaten like I usually do for approximately...2-3 weeks? Incredible.

Anyway I'll take lots of pictures at Prom & everything (much of it will be extremely painful, so watch out).

I haven't updated forever, sorry but I just haven't even felt like it. I hope I'm not growing out of LJ because I still want to be on the scene, lol.

Anyway, I've started work at the movie theatre with Marisa. It's a fun job with some nice (though sketchy) people.

I finished my senior internship at Chrome, which is a photography & digital art studio in Georgetown. It was pretty awesome & I met some really nice people. I have my presentation on Monday, gag me.

Prom is on Tuesday.

Graduation is on Saturday. Mother of pearl.

I miss my friends.

I'm going out with someone & his name is Art. He works at the movie theatre. We are basically the same person & I like him a lot. More on this later because tomorrow we're going to the zoo for the day :] Hopefully things go well...




( Just a quiz. Because I don't want to go to bed! )

So I have to buy something for myself that is uh-may-zing. I'm leaning towards a new iPod (my mini is very sad). If anyone has any ideas...hit it up.

So I just got back from seeing Spiderman 3: (spoilers) ( 5 out of 10 )

Icon dump @ until_youloveme. Please go see them, I'm really proud of them.

Anyway today pretty much sucked balls but whatever. Hope you all are good.

I am officially infected with the piercing bug. It's really, really bad. I spend hours perusing photos & stories of people's various piercings & pining for more of my own. Le sigh.

"I don't know what it is that they want, but I haven't got it to give..."

So yesterday was Senior Day. I carpooled with Lauren J, Alexa, & Claire to IHOP to eat breakfast with everyone. It was fun, many pictures were taken. Then we hightailed it to school & saw the senior prank: Allie had bought 4 raunchy sex dolls & they were tied up with balloons & stuck to the top of the ceiling of the school. LMAO. Then they came out with the school fun-sucker (even though he's actually pretty chill) administrator duct-taped to his chair, blindfolded, & with a pink tiara & clip on pink earrings. Oooooomg.

So then the senior speeches went on from 11-3. They were very sad but it was a good way to hear everyone's last words. Lmao, everyone swore so much & no one could do anything because, hey, fun-sucker was tied up. & everyone was only supposed to take 3 minutes but that kind of failed. I didn't make a speech but I was fine just watching 70% of the class go up there & talk.

Afterwards I went to Starfux with Alexa & Lauren J, & we met up with Gaelen & Jen there. Then a bunch of us (20?) got sushi for dinner. It was great because Allie goes there all the time & tips like a mother so they always give us massive amounts of their new creations. Score.

Then Liz, Lauren J, Alexa & I went to the movie theatre to go see Fracture but I read it wrong & it wasn't there :[ So we hightailed it to another theatre & they had CANCELED it. Misery! So we were like, dude, what do we do? We ended driving to another theatre's town center & met up with Kathy for Starfux AGAIN, then went to her house & watched 28 Days Later.

I had my job interview for the movie theatre this morning. It went fine except the girl was like "I don't know if it's good that you start in late June" (which is the only time I can start full-time). Fuck. I'm expecting a call, I really hope they call today so I can work it out.

Peace.

Review of 28 Days Later: ( 7 )

So today was my last day of classes :] It was very relaxing even though I had two tests. (Yeah, don't even say anything. They actually turned out to be soooo easy.) Basically I gave cards to a couple of my favorite teachers, then the rest of the school mosied into the gym & all the seniors got 2007 sunglasses (haha) & walked in, everyone clapped, & we watched the slideshow. It was sooo cute, everyone's pictures were on there & they were pretty hilarious most of the time. Then we got little goody bags with a bunch of candy, a rubber ducky water squeezer, & some other shit I can't remember. I had lunch, took a bunch of pictures which I will post after tomorrow, & chilled with people in the commons for the rest of the day. I feel sad but it's been okay so far. I haven't gone insane or anything, haha.

I think I'm going shopping with Shannon tonight, then we have IHOP breakfast in the morning & roll up for senior speeches for the rest of the day. I almost didn't want to leave school today (shocker!) because I was talking to people & I didn't want it to change. :[

I've had some hilarious times with my friends at school. Maybe not all the teachers were great, & maybe I hated what went on with administration & whatnot, but school was a gooooood time. My friends are amazing. I loved being a senior the ENTIRE year, & I really got to know a lot of people that I will be very sad to not be around every day. But I suppose all things come to an end & you have to appreciate the good times you had with someone & try to stay in touch with them. I will be partying hard the entire summer.

I hope you all are good.

So wow. Every time I think about updating this it just sort of makes me feel physically sick for some reason. Which is sad. But here I am, trying very hard to actually let you know that I do live.

So this is my last week of high school. I have tomorrow, then on Friday we're all gonna kick it at iHOP until 11 & then have senior speeches (basically everyone in the school lies around on couches while the seniors bitch & moan about their high school experiences & thank all the teachers who wrote them recommendations. & then I start my senior internship at the digital photography studio in Georgetown for 2 weeks, graduate, party hard, then my river trip! Ridiculously excited.

This week has been tumultuous. I'm going to prom with Jordan, this totally kick ass guy from Canada. Just as friends, though. He's so chill, I think it will be good. I actually just got back from Jessica McClintock - I bought this really cute dark turquoise strapless (I swear, every fucking time I go in there I say "No strapless!" & I end up walking out with a strapless. That's not even my fault because they are so obviously biased towards strapless.) Look at it! http://www.jessicamcclintock.com/webapp/wcs/stores/servlet/ProductDisplay?catalogId=10001&storeId=10001&productId=97643&categoryId=10010&langId=-1&parent_category_rn=10017
Yeah that was so unnecessarily difficult. I don't really have the energy or time to get into a lot of stuff but if other things develop in the rest of my life I will be sure to post.

Anyway, if anyone wants to ask me anything about my life, please feel free. I kind of don't know what to say & I don't want to bore you.

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